"If I were a rabbit" is an investigation/self-reflection on how "traits" of masculinity are forced upon this generation "unwillingly" through popular media; in addition, ways one could "transform" masculinity into the most "ideal" state: "the blue rabbit". The series utilizes information gathered from podcasts, streaming platforms, zoo visits, books on animal, and artists specialized in revisiting trauma in relation to history. The series promote the idea that animals are the most "perfect' existence: the pureness in expression, relentless pursuit of happiness and fulfillment; also, animals resemble every trait "missing" from a modernized man that is angry, ambitious, cold hearted, and overly self driven. The paintings use animals as characters to depict specific moments from the "high school" era. The elimination of using any recognizable figure is my attempt of "embracing" trauma: to appreciate trauma as future references and prevention of similar situations from happening. Finally, the solidification of "blue rabbit" represents the most ideal form that is happy, expressive and loving (completely opposing the societal standards on men). It leads directly into my next series "Finally a rabbit" hence unit 2.