Finally a rabbit: embarrassment
Questioning myself over and over again, what does it mean to be a "rabbit"; and it hit me, that I always was the rabbit in the narrative, just never realized it. I was always taking beating of reality to the face without any retaliation; and naturally, I just gave in.
But I did come to terms with myself on why I felt this way: never have I ever shed a tear on things on that only impacted me and not others. I was only emotionally responsive to the consensus of society. Things that are only deemed as acceptable to cry, yearn or angry for, and not something "miniscule" like grades?
just imagine a man (rabbit) sobbing over the loss of a pencil or eraser. wouldn't that be comical, or crazy?
Just imagine a man (rabbit) celebrating over an ant crossing a wooden bridge wouldn't that be quite a sight to see?
Not until later that I learned growing up meant to unlearn everything.. It is poison to feel guilty for responding, but it is more of a lonesome ever lasting torture than intense but short pain. So I rather disguise myself under this mask of rabbit to un-see everything that's natural to me, so that I can reappreciate everything again. Finally, I can be..
Haunted mirror/tv
The Duckees
Eye ball couch
"Eat em" highschool
Mr. ??
summary for unit 2 investigation
"Finally a rabbit" is the continuation of "If I were a rabbit" on the theme of transforming the ideal form of masculinity in society. Unlike the previous two series, "Finally a rabbit" primarily focuses on others' moments of being a "blue rabbit". It is an collaborative effort in navigating shared spaces of comfort through "magnifying" small problems; in addition, bestowing "insignificant" objects in the environment identities to represent societal "watchers" or "enforcers". It is a humorous way of showcasing how "standards" are pushed within a "safe" space. If "If I were a rabbit" is about how masculinity is being transformed, the "Finally a rabbit" highlights the punishment for becoming one.
Possibility of direction in research:
Palo Alto, California (locational expectancy in career: finance, computer science, engineer, etc)
Individually based (interview/dialogue with classmates friends, etc)
Artists that make work around the idea of "punishment"
Think 3D, spikey, interactive?
celebration of the mundane, blame capitalism